Last Holiday Season | My Addiction Had A Hold On Me

Last Holiday Season, my addiction had a hold on me.  Although I wished to be sober for the holidays, it just couldn’t become a reality at the time.  My addiction was too powerful, to the point where I lost a relationship immediately following the holidays where I spent a lot of time with her and her family.  I became selfish after that incident and sought self-pity from everyone.  The emotional wounds have since turned to scars after a year has passed, but there has been tremendous personal growth since that time.  This year I have been blessed to get the opportunity to spend the holidays with my family as a sober self.  The love that spreads through the holiday season is what makes this a special time of the year.  I am looking forward to spending time with my family as well as friends from Miracle House and giving back to them as a token of appreciation for the opportunity I have been given to get sober.  It is a wonderful feeling to be out of the metal haze of my addiction and see that the holidays are about giving back and sharing love, not being selfish.